For the past few weeks, I'm been doing OT after my morning shift. These have broke my principle and records to do OT unnecessary. This is because of my preceptee who is still learning and leaving all the shits till the end. Even how I tell or how other people scold her, she still repeatedly doing the same thing wrongly again and again. First 2 time I will teach, after that I will say  or even scold if I need to. Telling her the most important thing NOT to do is to pass shit over to the next shift. However, she repeatedly keep doing it again and again.

Now the current generation, we can't use the old way to teach them ( Scolding or sacarsiam) The more you do that on them, the more they will be demoralised and they more they won't want to learn. This is what we call the strawberry generation, one touch will be smash. Not like us, how the senior touch or smash on us, we are like a rubber ball, still can bounce it back and fight on. All I can say is the generation is getting bad to worse.

When can I get back my on the dot go home and not pass shit over?? Feel so bad for my colleagues who is taking over from them. ....hai....

Past week events

Time for some updates on my past one week. Last week, I had my BCLS re- cert. I went through effortlessly, just some updates on the  changes but the rest is still the same. So, I'm the first to finish  all the modules. :) In 2 years time, I will see this book again. wahaha. :)

Than in the evening, I met up my rehab staffs for dinner at big mama Korean restaurant in Tiong Bahru. I'm surprised to see this type of restaurant in Tiong Bahru because to me, it is some lulo place in Singapore. hehe. Not only that , we also went to To pot Teat to chill and enjoy deserts. not bad and unique place to go to chill, not too noisy and the place is nice.

On Tuesday, I went out with my god sister for dinner. We went to skinny pizza for our dinner and as usual, we are sharing our good and bad at SICU and my own ward plus my previous ward. But I have faith that she can make it la, coz she is my god sister, she can tahan the stress over there. haha. But the funny part is when we are waiting for our koi drink, there is one couple , I think is tourist suddenly approaches me to tell me my shirt is unique so she want to take a pic of it to show her friends. I was like ermmmm but I still let her took the pic la. Just feel funny when she ask to take pic of my shirt so randomly. haha

Back to my ward that I belong for 2 weeks already, entertaining my nonsense patients as always. Just 2 weeks, my nonsense patient threaten to AOR and complain to SQ but all of us know that he just want to wayang his way over here. He want people to pity him, as if he is the victim. even my MO and me are so willingly to let him AOR. but lucky thing is that, we got a good renal HOD that supported his own doctor for making the right decision, as he knows that this type of patients don't deserve to be treated like the rest of the patients. Because this patient  scolded all the staffs before, physically hit one of the doctors before until the doctor had to call police, and hit other patient before and break our plate before. So as you can see, how to not want to let this type of patient leave. right? I don't know why the hospital still let this type of patient to be admitted. we should ban this patient from the hospital but the hospital sadly do not have this policy. hai.....

This is part and parcel of working in renal ward, coz most of the patients are the same. saying in a crude way, it is a slow death by extending their lives using dialysis while waiting for the chance to have kidney transplant.
 

Life in my Mother ward is good and I feel I'm happier in it. People may think that why you come back, but the fact is I had enough of outside world( other wards) and find here is my better choice. Over here, I upgraded from god son of renal to Son of renal. funny right? haha. I'm here because I can sense a belonging and I can see my future over here. Busy is normal but most importantly is that I'm happy to be back and to entertain some of my nonsense renal patients. And I also met my renal MO who was HO in DIM back than. She also cannot tahan the renal patients and regretted to come to renal and she just want to get over and done with it. next month she is going to become reg in Gastro. hope she will be better over there. :)

Today the PSI shoot all the way to 290!!! is freaking mad. now even my clothes also can smell of BBQ smell as if I just went for BBQ. To all my friends out there, please take care of your health, especially if you got asthma or URTI, Try as much to stay indoor as possible. Even if you want to go exercise, go to gym instead bah. no point go train your stamina for running than in the end SOB due to the haze.

Last day at work yesterday makes me happy coz I will be away from the politic area to a less politic area. The only thing I will miss will be my colleagues and my HD staffs who had fought the war together with me while I 'm there. We hold on for each other, stand for each other no matter how hard the situation are. That is the spirit that I saw in us.

Next week, Let's welcome me into a  hell that people refused to go coz of the patient loads and the types of patients and relative will be facing. But once you been through this, you will understand why I say the work load is ok  for me. coz the type of renal patient you see in only 1, which is consider the good one. but I'm going to face 17  patients of different types of renal patients with all sort of nonsense. So goodbye ward 57 and hello Ward 64 renal C. Your god son is back in action. wahhaaha.....

After 3 days of suffering of my body temperature that make me to have frequent cold shower, I decided to go see dr. But best part is I have to see Dr on my last round of night. hai.... maybe is fated. I still thought I can tahan through my night by popping panadol while doing night shift. And I have to tell the sister about it . Confirmed she sure say me purposely take mc on working day coz im been on leave and off days for 1.5 week.
 
And because I only decided to go see dr at 4.30pm coz I suddenly having high fever of 38.3degrees. Of the whole day, only until now den start to spike fever. shit right??.
Wanted to go to my sister polyclinic but it is too late, so in the end go SGH DEM to see DR.  When I reached SGH DEM, they took my temperature, OH MY GOSH!!!!. is 39.9 degree!!!!! And Im still alert and conscious. Even the DR say u look ok to me, just take panadol, CXR, some blood and stat N/Saline over 1 hr and will review me later.

Of coz while waiting for the panadol to take effect. I did putting water on my face to cool down the temperature. Even my breath is hot will I breath out. Thank god my temperature did came down to 37.9 degree at 8pm. However, I can feel it is coming back up so I keep drinking cold drink to cool it down but don't seem to work that good.  Hai....

When the Dr see my blood result, she said my platelet is normal so is not dengue fever, but she say my tonsils a bit enlarged and my total while is sky high. So the final diagnosis is Upper Respiratory Tract Infection.  so she given me some antibiotic, lozenges, cough syrup and panadol. Hope it will work.

Well done!!!!. in a day. i just lost 1K in stock. well done. But lucky thing is i only lost 1 k. if i hold on till north korean start the bombing, my heart will oso going to start bombing too.

Today, out of my surprise, i saw my ex smn in my ward, bringing her nephew to come to see the medical field before he decided to embark to be a doctor.
When i saw her, i got the unknowning joy inside me that i wanted to cry.
the joy that i wanted to hug her. When she introduced me to her nephew and to my ward sister as my boy, it just bring a smile on my face.
A smile that is deep from my heart. The moment that lighten up my day.
When she asked that qn, unknowingly i knotting my head  showing the eagerness that i would want to return to the place i long to be. Now , all i hope is that this wish is coming soon .

Recently, there are many things happened at work.
until our big big boss has to come down to find out what happen actually.
when the truth has spoken, promises from the big big boss broken,
it really makes me think even more that i wanted to leave this place asap.
it just slowly killing me  mentally.
the used to be happy and joyful person i once be, becoming other's eye back stabber and have to hide the truth feeling in me, is gone or should i say it slowly dying off.
politic, is the most quiet, but most harmful weapon to have at work that will kill people silently.
Hai.....

Resolution for 2013

Time really flies!!!! here we are, in 2013 and we survive!!!! no doom days, nothing. So, is time to reflect back on what i did in the past year. some of the resolution i made in 2012.

 

1) watch ( I got it!!!)
2) complete my advance diploma ( Completed!!!)
3) special shirt or T-shirt ( pink colour should be counted. never in my life wearing pink and i find it nice :) )
4) go for many good dates with my friends and my
loved one ( not many good dates but have a wonderful time with them when we are out)
5) to loss weight and maintain it at 71 to 72 kg ( this one failed big time!!! still the same 75 to 76kg:( )
6) ran 21km again with better timing ( Completed my 21km but timing not met)
7) find my mrs right ( still searching for my mrs right ('-') )
8) learn sexaphone ( never even buy. haha. i guess i should just master my guitar first :) )
9) be happy always ( not really happy but trying to be)
10) go travelling often. ( Be it short or long trip)  ( at least i went hong kong, taiwan, and a few time to JB with friends)

 

Out of 10 resolutions, i managed to complete 7. not a bad achievement for myself:)

 As for 2013, what should i want to achieve??

 

Resolution for 2013

1) transfer out to my old ward

2) Earn more money from shares ( at least $1000)

3) loss weight to 72 to 73kg

4) wallet

5) get back in the love game and find my mrs right

6) travel out of singapore more

7) be happy

8) move toward mangerial role

9 ) have many good dates with my friends and love one.

10) learn more songs for guitar

 

Maybe you can see, why i dont want to put run 21km as my resolution? is because my body is starting to fail me, so i have to get  my health first before running 21km again. that will be it for 2013. Hope i can achieve.

 

忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。

百忍成金,  我能忍多久呢?

 

After working in the new work place for a few months, there are too many politic to handle, seen the top fighting opening, seen how the horizontal gossip about each other. They are making me to think how can i survive in such a place. Although im trying to be a neutral party, but how long can it be??

Plus the place im working in, there is no recognisation. so which mean no more people good feedback because im in a high dependency area. sad!!!

Thinking of going back to my old ward, tired of all these. at least the area im from in my old ward, is a less politic area and im happier to see my patient recover. We are more merrier to work with.

HAI!!!!!

I just had a hectic shift, that is why im blogging this.

Have a great outing with my old rehab staffs today :) It is really enjoying while we all shared our sweet memories that we had in rehab in the good old time. although some of us have left which include me, the bonding in us is still there. Happy to see 2  mummy having their first baby soon. Excited to see the arrival of their baby. :)

I don't know is it fate or concidence, both of us having the same injury ( wrist pain ). somemore is the same side. But whatever it is, I prefer to think is the latter one.

After been working for one month plus and I still make mistake that I can't forgive myself . I need to remind myself to be more careful and make my eye open bigger . Even though I know we learn from mistake , but I find I take my mistake really hard. Thats why I'm writing this out to remind myself to be careful and not make the same mistake again.

Really hope I will learn from my mistake after reflecting now . Hai.....

It has been 3 week since i started back at work.
Stress level is high at work in high dependency.
Best thing is, only working for 3 weeks and i have lost 3 kg.
What a free slimming centre. haha.
Hope i can survive in this type of environment:)