行到水穷处
坐看云起时

但曾相见便相知,
相见何如不见时,
安得与君相决绝,
免教生死作相思...

突然之间， 觉得自己老了许多。。。
关节疼痛开始找上我了。。。
颈项是旧患，不久就会复发。。。
可是近期， 颈项的旧患开始严重了。。。
它以蔓延到我另一边了， 动作开始不灵活了。
膝盖也渐渐的有酸痛的感觉了。
肩膀也是如此。。。
Hai。。。。 我不认老也不行了。
只有27岁的年龄， 却又80岁的身体。。。
常常让我感慨， 岁月不饶人。。。。

如果当你知道未来会发生不好的事在麽些人身上， 比如死亡。。。
你还会跟他在一起吗？？
如果你只有十六年的幸福，而还来一辈子的痛苦， 你能接受吗？
你还会跟他在一起吗？
是因为你很爱他还是你的理智阻止你的选择？？
你问我，我不知道。。。
因为选择在于自己在乎的是什么。。。
有话说的好， 不在乎天长地久， 只在乎曾经拥有。：）

Recently the tension is getting higher and feeling like pulling myself out of the situation. But I can't .... Study can be fun and presentation can also be fun but the way these are been done, are getting on my nerve. Last minute work won't produce good work. Success is for those who are prepared . They are not prepared at all. The way they prepare if I'm the audience , I can hear through their speech, they lack of confidence in their work. But now what I can do is to control my temper. A successful presentation does not need a lots of stuff. All it need is the confidence that is inside you. The way u speak and how u interact with the audience. Yes by having video can help to enhance your presentation. But a last minute video will it help ?? This is a questionable thing. Hope tmr will be ok . I hope....
Asking u to stay back for meeting cannot.... Saying got something on later. U knows that study shld come first now. If just going out for fun or meet bf, is tht acceptable?? If a mother with kids can stay back for the meeting , why couldn't u??? All we need is a good 2 hrs of discussion and u will be free. But if u are going to bring in family problem and vent on other people, is itz fair for tht person??
Argument in the meeting is good and not pinning one person idea down during meeting.
I miss my other grp meeting. We had argument but after 2 hr, we got thing done and the presentation is well done. Hai..... Controlling controlling......

Today is the day!!!!...

I had successfully sign up for sundown marathon 2012. see you guys on that day:)

And I had made some decision today. you know who you are. :X

In a few days time, it's time to say goodbye to 2011 and welcome 2012
And now is time again to evaluate what i had done for the last one year.
So let's take a look of what i had in my wishlist for 2011:

Wishlist for 2011
1) leather bag (Gotten)
2) belt (Gotten)
3) leather hard wallet ( gotten):)
4) sunglass ( gotten it... hehe)
5) watch
6) special shirt or T- shirt
7) happy always
8) find my mrs right

So out of 8 wishes, i manage to achieve 4 of it. just pass. I know is not very good. so ... what ever i didnt achieve this year, i will work harder next year to get it. for pointer 8, i realised i have not been in relationship since the last one for nearly a year. So i will try harder to make the pointer 8 come true. I seriously had enough of singlehood le. I need someone to love me and i love her, pampered her and showered her with love. Will this year be the year??

But something good is that, this year, i got one gan mei mei from no way. haha... so is a blessing. To have her around when i need her. Thank you mei mei. Kor appreciate your present.:) so now i got 2 gan mei mei. hehe:)

So what do i want to have for 2012??hmmm
Here it goes....

Wishes for 2012:
1) watch
2) complete my advance diploma
3) special shirt or T-shirt
4) go for many good dates with my friends and my loved one
5) to loss weight and maintain it at 71 to 72 kg
6) ran 21km again with better timing
7) find my mrs right
8) learn sexaphone
9) be happy always
10) go travelling often. ( Be it short or long trip)

After receiving my bio test result, I start to feel the pinch. I'm not putting my best effort in my study. Is time for me to buck up!!! Wake up Andy goh!!! Shld be in full force ahead le.... Jia you bah Andy goh

mentally tired... no mood for study!!!

Today i went for my orth appointment and guess what the doctor told me

In order to have a better quality of life, he suggest me to go for nerve block

And the funny thing is that, in the morning, i had a lecture on anesthesia which talk about nerve block too, such a concidental lor

and he told me that if i go for nerve block, i will at least have 1 year of numbless time

if not i will be going to regular Physio every 3 to 4 months when i had my numbness back

and i told my mum about this issue, and she told me don't go for it, coz she is worry that something bad might happen. Eg side effect, paralysis....

even though how i persuade her, she still won't listen, she is just too worry about me le

So for the time been,i shall just keep this option open till my appointment with the pain clinic which is quite far, in march and i just go for my phsyio

But for me, i would want to have a better quality of life....

Now let's talk about what happen in my school recently

first of all, my classmates are trying to help me match make girls in my class

i was like huh?? but i'm fine with that but just go with the flow

If really it will happen, it will happen that's what i believe

All i want is someone who can control me and i can care for them be it older or younger than me

To me, age is just a number but to some others, is a big issue

but the first thing is that, i allow them to control me, that is the most important thing

Than second thing is that, my classmates are calling me boss... like boss is coming, boss say one must listen.. blah blah blah....

that's funny lor, am i too bossy when im in class, i don't think so leh....

All i want is that you don't waste my time, i will keep things short... that's all....

Please don't let me break my no OT principle.... not even in school....

I'm waiting for my first flight ...
After 26 yr , this I my first time taking plane....
Mixed feeling now...
At least something good about it is tht I got a free upgrade from economic class to business class:)
Though is a short trip but time to see out of Singapore :)
Bon voyage!!!!!

It has been quite sometime i haven touch my blog or my hardcopy one, because, im plain lazy. hehe

Quite a fair bit happen during my absent from here.

let's talk about sch first, im been arrowed to be the overall leader for 3 classes of 58 people. im also the leader of my group and my sub group... Crazy i know....

Than just to settle the admin stuff took them abt 1 week plus to settle. how efficient are we??

Follow by the stupid buying of textbooks, which like wasted my one and a half hour just to settle them due to the rest of the leaders so screwed up.

As for the study part, i realised that, the PPI and the research EBP all i had gone through during my curtin time, so i have to repeat them again,

To some of my classmates, these are stress, as the ICA presentation and assignment flooding in but to me, still managable, not stress yet... but i hope i won't. haha

Let's talk about some good things now, i still went out for movie after school. at least im still having a life ... :) meet up some of friends and colleague in between here and there. we have quite a fair bit to catch up.

And i also regularly meeting one of my friends to la kopi in the middle of the night. haha.. now we got 2 places to go, lao ti fang no 1 ( drink) or lao ti fang no 2 ( la kopi). will there be lao ti fang no 3?? hehe

Than now is the sad part, my that friend say only like 2 week never see you , you look rounder le.... i say where got.... sad lor... :( only 2 week of sch people start saying this to me... bad sign bad sign..... so is time for me to hit the swimming pool and gym at least 3 time per week. but hor, when i weigh myself today in the gym, i still maintain my weight before i come to sch leh... hmmm... water retention.... must be!!!!

now starting to do the ICA presentation stuff le, slowly slowly do, i don't know i must do it in my home than i got the feeling to do... you know de la... feeling ar... feeling... hehe...

Ok la, this should be it for now..... don't know when will be the next time i will blog le... bye....

星空

摸不到的顏色 是否叫彩虹?
看不到的擁抱 是否叫做微風?
一個人 想著一個人 是否就叫寂寞?
命運偷走如果 只留下結果時間偷走初衷 只留下了苦衷
你來過 然後你走後 只留下星空
那一年我們望著星空 有那麼多的 燦爛的夢
以為快樂會永久 像不變星空 陪著我獵戶
天狼 織女 光年外沉默
回憶 青春 夢想 何時偷偷隕落？
我愛過 然後我沈默 人海裡漂流
那一年我們望著星空 未來的未來 從沒想過
當故事失去美夢 美夢失去線索 而我們失去聯絡
這一片無言無語星空 為什麼靜靜 看我淚流
如果你在的時候 會不會伸手 擁抱我？
細數繁星閃爍 細數此生奔波
原來 所有 所得 所獲 不如一夜的星空
空氣中的溫柔 回憶你的笑容
彷彿只要伸手 就能觸摸摸不到的顏色
是否叫彩虹看不到的擁抱
是否叫做微風一個人 習慣一個人...
這一刻獨自望著星空 從前的從前 從沒變過
寂寞可以是忍受 也可以是享受 享受僅有的擁有
那一年我們望著星空 有那麼多的 燦爛的夢
至少回憶會永久 像不變星空 陪著我
最後只剩下星空 像不變回憶 陪著我...

sometime, is good to be away from the crowd and just enjoy the scenary that is around us
and today that is what i did.... i went jogging around tampines with my mp3.
seeing things that is round me, feeling the wind going against me when i run.
and out of my surprise, my colleague, ssn yeo, saw me when i run pass the reservior
but i didn't know till i reach home , because i never bring my hp along.
i don't how long can i still run, cause my knee is giving me problem again.... im controlling my pain as i run. sometime, i got a feeling that i may break my knee when i run.... just kidding la...

yesterday, i went out with anna, jia en and chen lin for dinner, we also on the way celebrating for our new driver, anna, who had just pass her driving test in one attempt. nice one:)
THanks to her, we also got our treat of our drink at artery. I think it will be my chilling area soon. Not only that, i also got to know how to use the window movie maker too yesterday. so cool lor.... and im playing it today but i refused to save the things that i made, coz is some personal stuff that i think is not appropriate to do it. but i hope i can really make it and use it for future use, so now is just a dream bah.....

i had make up my mind on some decision .

maybe it will be better not to do so.

if not things may get a bit complicated.

so i should just leave it like that bah.