In a few days time, it's time to say goodbye to 2011 and welcome 2012
And now is time again to evaluate what i had done for the last one year.
So let's take a look of what i had in my wishlist for 2011:

Wishlist for 2011
1) leather bag (Gotten)
2) belt (Gotten)
3) leather hard wallet ( gotten):)
4) sunglass ( gotten it... hehe)
5) watch
6) special shirt or T- shirt
7) happy always
8) find my mrs right

So out of 8 wishes, i manage to achieve 4 of it. just pass. I know is not very good. so ... what ever i didnt achieve this year, i will work harder next year to get it. for pointer 8, i realised i have not been in relationship since the last one for nearly a year. So i will try harder to make the pointer 8 come true. I seriously had enough of singlehood le. I need someone to love me and i love her, pampered her and showered her with love. Will this year be the year??

But something good is that, this year, i got one gan mei mei from no way. haha... so is a blessing. To have her around when i need her. Thank you mei mei. Kor appreciate your present.:) so now i got 2 gan mei mei. hehe:)

So what do i want to have for 2012??hmmm
Here it goes....

Wishes for 2012:
1) watch
2) complete my advance diploma
3) special shirt or T-shirt
4) go for many good dates with my friends and my loved one
5) to loss weight and maintain it at 71 to 72 kg
6) ran 21km again with better timing
7) find my mrs right
8) learn sexaphone
9) be happy always
10) go travelling often. ( Be it short or long trip)

After receiving my bio test result, I start to feel the pinch. I'm not putting my best effort in my study. Is time for me to buck up!!! Wake up Andy goh!!! Shld be in full force ahead le.... Jia you bah Andy goh

mentally tired... no mood for study!!!

Today i went for my orth appointment and guess what the doctor told me

In order to have a better quality of life, he suggest me to go for nerve block

And the funny thing is that, in the morning, i had a lecture on anesthesia which talk about nerve block too, such a concidental lor

and he told me that if i go for nerve block, i will at least have 1 year of numbless time

if not i will be going to regular Physio every 3 to 4 months when i had my numbness back

and i told my mum about this issue, and she told me don't go for it, coz she is worry that something bad might happen. Eg side effect, paralysis....

even though how i persuade her, she still won't listen, she is just too worry about me le

So for the time been,i shall just keep this option open till my appointment with the pain clinic which is quite far, in march and i just go for my phsyio

But for me, i would want to have a better quality of life....

Now let's talk about what happen in my school recently

first of all, my classmates are trying to help me match make girls in my class

i was like huh?? but i'm fine with that but just go with the flow

If really it will happen, it will happen that's what i believe

All i want is someone who can control me and i can care for them be it older or younger than me

To me, age is just a number but to some others, is a big issue

but the first thing is that, i allow them to control me, that is the most important thing

Than second thing is that, my classmates are calling me boss... like boss is coming, boss say one must listen.. blah blah blah....

that's funny lor, am i too bossy when im in class, i don't think so leh....

All i want is that you don't waste my time, i will keep things short... that's all....

Please don't let me break my no OT principle.... not even in school....

I'm waiting for my first flight ...
After 26 yr , this I my first time taking plane....
Mixed feeling now...
At least something good about it is tht I got a free upgrade from economic class to business class:)
Though is a short trip but time to see out of Singapore :)
Bon voyage!!!!!

It has been quite sometime i haven touch my blog or my hardcopy one, because, im plain lazy. hehe

Quite a fair bit happen during my absent from here.

let's talk about sch first, im been arrowed to be the overall leader for 3 classes of 58 people. im also the leader of my group and my sub group... Crazy i know....

Than just to settle the admin stuff took them abt 1 week plus to settle. how efficient are we??

Follow by the stupid buying of textbooks, which like wasted my one and a half hour just to settle them due to the rest of the leaders so screwed up.

As for the study part, i realised that, the PPI and the research EBP all i had gone through during my curtin time, so i have to repeat them again,

To some of my classmates, these are stress, as the ICA presentation and assignment flooding in but to me, still managable, not stress yet... but i hope i won't. haha

Let's talk about some good things now, i still went out for movie after school. at least im still having a life ... :) meet up some of friends and colleague in between here and there. we have quite a fair bit to catch up.

And i also regularly meeting one of my friends to la kopi in the middle of the night. haha.. now we got 2 places to go, lao ti fang no 1 ( drink) or lao ti fang no 2 ( la kopi). will there be lao ti fang no 3?? hehe

Than now is the sad part, my that friend say only like 2 week never see you , you look rounder le.... i say where got.... sad lor... :( only 2 week of sch people start saying this to me... bad sign bad sign..... so is time for me to hit the swimming pool and gym at least 3 time per week. but hor, when i weigh myself today in the gym, i still maintain my weight before i come to sch leh... hmmm... water retention.... must be!!!!

now starting to do the ICA presentation stuff le, slowly slowly do, i don't know i must do it in my home than i got the feeling to do... you know de la... feeling ar... feeling... hehe...

Ok la, this should be it for now..... don't know when will be the next time i will blog le... bye....

星空

摸不到的顏色 是否叫彩虹?
看不到的擁抱 是否叫做微風?
一個人 想著一個人 是否就叫寂寞?
命運偷走如果 只留下結果時間偷走初衷 只留下了苦衷
你來過 然後你走後 只留下星空
那一年我們望著星空 有那麼多的 燦爛的夢
以為快樂會永久 像不變星空 陪著我獵戶
天狼 織女 光年外沉默
回憶 青春 夢想 何時偷偷隕落？
我愛過 然後我沈默 人海裡漂流
那一年我們望著星空 未來的未來 從沒想過
當故事失去美夢 美夢失去線索 而我們失去聯絡
這一片無言無語星空 為什麼靜靜 看我淚流
如果你在的時候 會不會伸手 擁抱我？
細數繁星閃爍 細數此生奔波
原來 所有 所得 所獲 不如一夜的星空
空氣中的溫柔 回憶你的笑容
彷彿只要伸手 就能觸摸摸不到的顏色
是否叫彩虹看不到的擁抱
是否叫做微風一個人 習慣一個人...
這一刻獨自望著星空 從前的從前 從沒變過
寂寞可以是忍受 也可以是享受 享受僅有的擁有
那一年我們望著星空 有那麼多的 燦爛的夢
至少回憶會永久 像不變星空 陪著我
最後只剩下星空 像不變回憶 陪著我...

sometime, is good to be away from the crowd and just enjoy the scenary that is around us
and today that is what i did.... i went jogging around tampines with my mp3.
seeing things that is round me, feeling the wind going against me when i run.
and out of my surprise, my colleague, ssn yeo, saw me when i run pass the reservior
but i didn't know till i reach home , because i never bring my hp along.
i don't how long can i still run, cause my knee is giving me problem again.... im controlling my pain as i run. sometime, i got a feeling that i may break my knee when i run.... just kidding la...

yesterday, i went out with anna, jia en and chen lin for dinner, we also on the way celebrating for our new driver, anna, who had just pass her driving test in one attempt. nice one:)
THanks to her, we also got our treat of our drink at artery. I think it will be my chilling area soon. Not only that, i also got to know how to use the window movie maker too yesterday. so cool lor.... and im playing it today but i refused to save the things that i made, coz is some personal stuff that i think is not appropriate to do it. but i hope i can really make it and use it for future use, so now is just a dream bah.....

i had make up my mind on some decision .

maybe it will be better not to do so.

if not things may get a bit complicated.

so i should just leave it like that bah.

tonight will be the final showdown to decide our future president for singapore.

let 's see who will it be??

I just finished watching the NDP on TV, the firework is amazing.

But let's put the fun aside, and look into the message that they are trying to get into us.

The Singapore spirit... how many people know what is singapore spirit??

There is a reason why they put the main focus on this theme.

This is because, this is the spirit that the 90' s babies are lacking....

It is not about just having fun and not to worry about the future.

This is the spirit that bond us together, and make us feel who we are....

Today my colleague from philippines asks what is majulah singapura means?

Than my singapore colleague who is the 90' s babies say i don't know....

It means forward singapore.... that is what i had learnt when im in primary school and i still can remember.

By knowing the past of our country, helps us cherish the present more and will want to fight for the future better.

Because we all know that we are striving for our future, a place call home.

A home that no other places will have. a home that we have to fight for, defend for and not destroying it on our own hands.

No one will fight for you, but you!!!!

So are the singaporeans out there, willing to take up the spirit and fight for it, and pass on to our next generation??

i just bought iphone 4. from a non 3G phone i change to a iphone 4. crazy lor me...

and the best part is i didn't know i can change my phone till my sister tell me that.. haha

so now im getting used to it. :)

Are the nurses in singapore getting bad to worse??

i got to hear my neighbour made a complaint to the MP regarding their father has been ill treated in CGH by removing the call bell from him for the whole day....

than the nursing home incident that happen yesterday....

Is that what we are doing nowadays??

Rather chatting with your colleagues and gossipping and not attending to the patients??

It just bring shame to us as a nurse...

in another 6 hours, i will be running my first 21km run. excited and nervous....

a lots of thoughts running through my head now....

what if .... i faint after i run?? what if??

there is a lots of what if .... haiz....

need to stop thinking so much and head back to take my nap to have enough energy for later...

you are the creator of your own destiny.

you are the one who choose what kind of life you want to live

you are the one who decide who you want to be.

so believe in yourself and move toward what you wanted the most

remember....

your destiny is in your hand

他向她求婚时，只说了三个字“相信我”；

她为他生下第一个女儿的时候，他对她说“辛苦了”；

女儿出嫁那天，他搂着她的肩说“还有我”；

他收到她病危通知的那天，重复地对她说“我在这”；

她要走的那一刻，他亲吻她的额头轻声说“你等我”。

这一生，他没对她说过一次“我爱你”，但爱，从未离开过……

如果你注意的话， 我们的政府像三国时代的曹操
在乱世时， 他是英雄， 可是在静世时， 他变成枭雄
以前的时候， 他也是从反对党变化成政党
现在， 别的反对党不满他的政策， 而要反他。。。
我们的反对党就像刘备， 被欺压的很久，
不满他的独裁， 所以站出来反他。
我们的反对党会是刘备吗?? 会带领我们的人民去更好的领域吗??
这只有以他们的五年的时间来证明。
让我们去看吧。。。

沒有合適不合適，只有珍惜不珍惜，

能一起走一起進步是幸福的

i just now go and collect my first contact lens, wearing it now...

after so long, wearing spectacle, feel so weird... haha

but at least i going for what i target for this year. which is buy my sunglass.. hehe

and i bought it already... yahoo... 2nd target achieved... so happy... :)

hope i can get what i want to achieved by the end of the year... :)wahaha

我发现当一个人的岁数渐渐地增加和环境的影响， 人的思想，想法 和物质上的需要都会慢慢地成熟。 当你刚踏入社会工作时，你要的大多是好高务远的东西。 因为环境的影响，你所要的，和你所想的会 慢慢的不一致。 你会慢慢的脚踏实地的追求你可以要的和你有能力要的。这就是人生。。。

today i made a big decision that i should have done maybe a few week back. that is i submitted my self nomination form up to DNA . i been pondering where or should i go. but now , seem like i know what i want to go, so... wait for the outcome bah. whoever saw this from my ward, this few months, maybe the last few months with you all le. All the best to you all bah. :)

有一种思念叫不联系

有时候，你很想念一个人 -
但你不会给他打电话 -
因为 -
打电话给他 -
对方冷冷的一句“喂” -
会让你不知说什么好 -
还是不打比较好 -
发个信息吧 -
好怕对方不回信息 -
要不~就算回了也就简短到让人心疼的一个“哦” -
-
打电话给久未谋面的知己 -
以前 -
你们什么都可以谈 -
现在 -
通电话了,只会谈一些无关紧要的事 -
那种感觉并不好。 -
此后 -
当你想她 -
你不会再打电话给她 -

I was typing my CV for my study and one of the section is to talk about my nursing philosphy.
i was like hmmm... my nursing philosphy i nearly forget le lor... den i slowly recall why i join nursing in the first place. so here goes my nursing philosphy:

I believe that nurses are the most important in the healthcare setting. This is because without nurses, the healthcare system will not be able to function properly. When we nursed patients, we should treat them equally irregardless which class they are in. We should provide them the most appropriate care and to the best of our ability. We will not be in this line if all we want is money. This is because we care for people; we want to be there for them when they are sick and to accompany them for their last journey if they do not have any family.

Hope this will be always in my mind and heart. i hope.. if not my fire for nursing will be gone...

白色情人節快乐

i have successfully bake a bread by myself... im a genius... wahaha...

一个优秀的人单身说明这人足够优秀，一个再优秀的人随意恋爱说明这人的优秀只是表面而已，真正希望对方好的，就是默默在背后关心对方。最好的承诺，不是爱你一万年，而是根本不需要承诺。

恋 人不是靠寻找的，因为在没有完全了解对方之前，对方可以为了吸引你暂时改变自己，而一旦你完全了解对方后，分手就指日可待了。所以恋爱应该是日久生情，彼 此非常熟知后自然地走在一起，甚至无需表白。不要认为对方人很好就轻易妥协，人好不是爱情的全部，你们必须为爱情的将来做打算。

虽然分手是另一段爱情的重新开始，但初恋只有一次，一个人在初恋中对爱情的向往是最多的，而一旦恋爱失败，以后的每一次恋爱中，最难忘的还是初恋。

所以，不是不想恋爱，而是，不想随便的恋爱！

why i cannot enter my twitter?? argh... angry....

OMG, i nearly go to work today, thinking im working morning shift...
lucky i see my roster again... phew....

每一张照片， 都述说着一个故事。
在不同的时候， 派下当时的回忆。
拍出当时的喜怒哀乐， 然人回味无穷
看了<大世界>后， 让我意识到照片的重要。
当我们老去时， 剩下的只有回忆。
而回忆都在照片里。。。
我会拍下很多的照片让这些照片述说我的回忆。

Just read Holly Jean blog and got to know she had just break up with GB.
Sad for her but one thing i like what she said , is that "It's not a matter of patience, or "good things come with time".... it's a matter of the heart. "

If two people get together but the ultimate goal that they want in life (eg. marriage) is totally different, there is no point staying together in the relationship as the end result when the time comes, is break up or divorce.

One more thing i like and i totally agreed with what she said, is "When I think of marriage, I think of love. A happy, fulfiling and powerful kind of love. I think of giving (and in turn receiving) unparallelled comfort, happiness and such promise for the future together."

You has to feel right. In order to feel right, you not only need the right person , you also need to meet the right person at the right time. Like my exs, we may feel right in the beginning, but as time goes by, you will find out what we want in life is totally different. Like me , i want to settle down, whereas for them , settle down is not now. they want freedom, they want to have fun. If forcing to be together, we will end up no way but quarrel than break up. So what is the point of holding back and not letting go??

They maybe feel that they are still young, but for me, not like i'm so old like that, just that, i'm thinking further more. I don't believe in staying long in relationship, bcoz i have seen people end up break up or divorce after been together for 7 to 8 years. So time cannot be used to measure relationship.

Maybe i still finding the right person at the right time. And i don't know when will it be but I still believe in love. Perhaps more than ever.

what a birthday i had.....

boring one and rotting one....

celebrate with my family and surprisely with the 2 neighbour auntie...

hate it to the max....

lucky got one of my friends chat with me on phone to pass the rest of my birthday

i really appreiate that.

expected the answer yesterday. so i not hoping much on it . if not i will be very disappointed.

有时候哭泣不是因为难过

有一些东西错过了就一辈子错过了

人是会变的

守住一个不变的承诺却守不住一颗善变的心

有时候执着是一种负担、放弃是一种解脱...

人没有完美幸福没有一百分

知道自己没有能力一次拥有那么多

也没有权力要求那么多

否则苦了自己也为难了对方.

水瓶座一生的真爱 3次

瓶子是在爱情里最强调感觉的
如果说毁掉一次真爱很容易
那么毁掉瓶子转瞬即逝的感觉则更容易
不过另一方面瓶子真的爱上一个人也很难
因此无论如何他们会尽力的将自己的爱情延长一些
好歹对得起那说不清道不明的爱的感觉
事不过三
三次真爱之说便由此而来
第一次为了感觉
第二次为了爱情
第三次为了人生
再往后就捏着鼻子
忍忍吧忍到忍无可忍为止

宁缺勿滥

曾经有一段真挚的爱情摆放在我的面前，
我不懂得珍惜， 只到失去了才来后悔。
在这成事间， 莫过于此。。。
如果时间能让我从来一次，
我会勇敢的对那个女孩在说一次，我爱你

缘分是天定的，幸福是自己的

记得从哪里看到了这句话：如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她：如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人。这话直白但很有道理，也从侧面教会了人们如何对待情感。

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的，有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃，爱是人生中一首永远也唱不完的歌。

人生中也许会经历许多种爱，但千万不要让爱成为一种伤害。生活中到处都存在缘分，缘聚缘散好像都是命中注定的事情。 有些缘分一开始就注定的事情。有些缘分一开始就注定要失去，有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果。可是我却偏偏渴望创造一种奇迹。爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有 一个人就一定要好好的去爱她。话说着容易，可一旦做时就很难，不信你试试。如果真诚是一种伤害，请选择谎言;；如果谎言是一种伤害，请选择沉默；如果沉默 是一种伤害，请选择离开；如果爱是一种伤害，请不要靠近。可是好多情况下并不是如此，因为不由得你选择。

如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出？如果痴迷是苦，你会不会选择结束？如果追求是 苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟？如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉？好多事情是后来才看清楚，好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦，然而我已经找不到来时的路，有一种爱，明 明是深爱，却表达不完美；有一种爱明知道要放弃，却不甘心就此离开；有一种爱，明知道是煎熬，却又躲不掉；有一种爱，明知道无前路，心却早已收不回来。

爱情不是游戏，因为我们玩不起它。爱是真心付出，要忘记真 的做不到。不管归处将是哪里，我想都该在心底留有一份纯真的美好。从来没有对别人动心，突然发现自己深深爱上了你，那种滋味真是难以用言语表达；是喜悦? 是哀伤？你叫我忘记，难道爱是说收就收就可以收的吗？可以的话那就不叫爱了。也许我没有勇气面对现实的残酷。那么什么是勇气？是哭着要你爱我？还是哭这让 你离开？估计此时没有一个正确的答案。

香烟爱上火柴，就注定被伤害。不要轻易说爱，许下的承诺是欠下的债，老鼠对猫说“我爱你”，猫说“你走开”，老鼠流泪走开了，谁也没有看到老鼠走后猫也流了一滴泪，其实有一种爱叫放弃。

如果你是我眼中的一滴泪，那我永远不会哭，因为我怕失去你。

一只风筝一辈子只会为一根线冒险，女人善变的脸，男人善变的心，叶子的离开是风的追求，还是树的不挽留，喜欢淡淡的爱，还是深深的喜欢？鱼说“看不到我的眼泪，因为我在水中”，水说“我能感觉到，因为你在我心中”，在爱的世界里，没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不珍惜谁。这个世界上有一种感情，虽然刻骨铭心，却只能擦肩而过，不管是如何爱过，不管是谁转过身，最终都会沉浸那忧伤的时间海，慢慢麻醉地守着曾经传过情话的电话，听不到它再响起的声音，无力再去拨通那个号码，总是看别人表演着甜蜜，总是在别人的爱情里留着自己的眼泪，而自己只是舞台上那没人注意的配角，用孤独去衬托别人的爱情，演出的都是别人的表情，终于明白爱情只是模特身上那件美的霓裳，穿在别人身上总是耀眼美丽，换到自己的身上就成了小丑的戏服。

都是寂寞在撒谎，爱不是缺了就找，不是累了就换；生活不是一个人的电影，是两个人在一起好好过，时间在窗外溜走，我们自己早已在时间中苍老，皱纹蔓延在心头，转过身去背对着爱情离开，把自己关在门里，把爱情关在门外......

只是这一转身，往往是永世的分离！！！