Time for some update and my resolution for next year which is coming in like 2 hour time.
Also to reflect back on my resolution I made for this year. let's see if I had complete how many of my targets.

First of all, I was back to civilisation on 22 Dec after a training by OBS. A lot of things had happen during this 21 days course. Some personal stuff that happen during this 21 days but I shall not talk about it until everything is confirm. In this 21 days course, I have met people from all area (eg. teachers from primary , secondary, ITE and JC ) , children society members and counsellor. Total there are 3 groups been form, one is my group which we call ourselves (OldBS) because we are the oldest among the 3 groups. The other groups were formed by teenagers aged 17 to 18. At that point of time, I feel old but during the course, it has proven that the oldest is still the wiser one. We still can win the younger people, we may be slow but we have the stamina and endurance. And we complete the stuff as one group. :) The surprise thing that shocked me was that I lost weight during this course. I lost 5kg in just 21 days. haha :)

Today , 7 of us went back to palau ubin to enjoy the moment and memories that we had during the 21 days. it was fun and enjoyable to go through the checkpoint that we had to achieve that time. we are crazy but all this is worth it, because it kept the memories of us . We been through the thick and thin together as one. :)

Time to do some reflect on my resolution that I had made early this year.

Resolution for 2013:
1) transfer out to my old ward ( I made it back !!!!!)
2) Earn more money from shares ( at least $1000) ( I made 2k plus for this year:))
3) loss weight to 72 to 73kg ( Now weight 71.1kg:))
4) wallet ( never get it. Maybe will get it next year)
5) get back in the love game and find my mrs right ( Still finding. hope it is coming real soon )
6) travel out of singapore more  (Went out to Taiwan, Bangkok)
7) be happy ( most of the time :))
8) move toward mangerial role ( still in progress but need more time)
9 ) have many good dates with my friends and love one ( had many good time with my friends and love one )
10) learn more songs for guitar ( guitar list song increase from 5 to 12)

As I can see out of 10 resolution I manage to achieve 6.5 of my aim which is quite good for me. So what is my resolution for 2014?? hmmmm...

As for Resolution 2014:
1) Wallet
2) join more run and marathon this year
3) Travel out of Singapore with friends and family and love one more
4) Be happy
5) Earn money from stock market ( at least $2000)
6) Find my Mrs Right
7) Maintain weight at 70kg
8) Move toward managerial role
9) Start my master course
10) Learn more guitar songs

It has been a long time that I last blog.  there have been many things happening.

 First of all, I been selected to go for the leadership and service award. This is a course of 21 days out from home. Which also means that I will be away from work for 21 days too. Hehe. :p happy right ??   Now here I am at taiwan , jiayi. There are many first time I did over here. I went up the salt mountain to see the view and tried a salted ice cream too. Not only that, I also first time siton the 快铁 (express train) it was so fast that it took us only 1.5 hr to reach the hotel. I also first time watch movie at jiayi. After my movie, I went to the special cafe called, 85degree a new cafe to enjoy myself with a cup of latte. And now, here I am, waiting for my first ride on train to taipei.  very exciting. Hehe

Time to update my blog. It's been a long time that I last blog. Because I'm away at Bangkok for ANQ Congress 2013. It was awesome, while doing serious thing, I had a great time at Bangkok.

I went on 15/10/2013 which is hari raya haji on SQ 970. This was the first time I ever seat in the airbus. I went with one colleague and I meeting my family over there. It was also our first time going to Bangkok. We stayed at my hotel CMYK which is just around the corner for my congress at Swissotel Le Concorde Bangkok. The price of the  2 hotel was a super big different. I only paid 200 plus for a deluxe family room for 4 night and if you need extra bed, all you need is to top up 20 buck (SIN).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 This is my hotel reception area only. hehe

my family went to MDK for shopping. It was very fruitful. We bought a lot of thing, like food and t- shirt for my cousins and of coz myself . :P
We also went to Big C and their street market. their food is nice but I only scared lao sai. haha.

When they left, I was hotel alone, so I went out with my friend to other places. The food there is like eating at student price in Singapore. We explore one of the shopping centre named Terminal 21. As the name have said, the theme of this shopping centre is to have 21 terminal in one place. so we are like flying to many places in just one place. haha.

 

This restaurant is worth your money if you are a steak lover. their steak is dirt cheap.

Today our QI Team went out to celebrate at equinox. It is a fine dining area at a view of 70 floor. You can see the view of the city and the sea at one glance. It was amazing. After tortured by our QI for 2.5 years which is soooo long, we gain ourselves a few wining award from our QI project. So that why we went to this place for our celebration.

However, I have to comment that, the service and food is okok only, or should I say the service is bad. Can you imagine we went there to have our dinner, with no one topping up the water for us. We are been isolated at one corner at the enterance. As for the food, we ordered a seafood platter as an appetizer, but i'm disappointed with the crab because it is not fresh, it causes my tongue to itch. lucky got the lobster if not will be double sadness. As for my main course, I ordered a salmon fillet, it was well cooked and the portion is just nice. normally when we ordered salmon, is either raw or fully cooked until the meat is very tough. But this salmon will melt in your mouth without chewing. you can imagine it is so soft.

I pity my other friends who ordered the lamb,  when they bring out the dish, we all were shocked, we are  all thinking, that's all? only a few small pieces of lamb on the biggg plate and a bowl of don't know what over there. we all thinking of the lamb with the stick poking out  but not this one. Lucky thing, it tasted not bad according to my friends.

Than my Dr ordered a pork belly main course, portion ok for a guy but the vegetable cannot make it, It is so crunchy until I can heard it when I  sit beside him and the best part is, I thought he is eating the pork belly, so crunchy but the fact is , no. He is eating the bottom of the vegetable. hahaha

By right we wanted to order wine, but in the end we never, after seeing the price of the wine, we decided to stick to our plain water. And when the bill is shown, guessed what the bill is, it costs us 600 plus for 5 people. and we are not satisfied. In the end we when to the basement for our tea time at tiong bahru bakery.

Soooo...... it is an expensive fine dining experience that I wont want to have another one. Is so not worth it.

These few days, quite a fair bit that happened. First of all, I passed my LSCN course yesterday. So far so good. Maybe is because I went advance dip in  medical surgical plus I work in HD before, so I know the kind of drugs to use  when emergency. Small cases!!! haha:P

And I lighten up someone with surprise because of recently, the person cannot go for advance dip due to low number of participant to go for the course. quite sad for her and she tried to appeal but cannot. Plus that day, she had a rough time at work. so I wanted to cheer her up so I ask  to deliver something for her and she was happy. and she told me not to waste money on that, so I told her than next time I send her the plastic one, can last forever. haha

I also went out with my china gang colleagues for dinner and KTV. Im shocked to see when I saw the bill at the restaurant is freaking cheap for 8 people and each person paying only like 17 buck.  We went Chinatown K box to sing KTV and I impressed by my rehab china colleagues , they can really sing very well and very high pitch.  I nearly jaw drop when they sing. HAHA . After singing , we went strolling at clark quay, sit by the river, listening to music from the other site. Is so enjoyable. :)

Time have passed so fast, it's the end of my leave.  Tomorrow will be my last day of leave. Not a bad leave, while slacking at home, I'm still earning money. :P I had attended Anna 's wedding dinner though something last min  but lucky thing was, not much of people is around. Only their family who saw it and some of us. Never mind, it will still be a happy ending. :)

Time to start read up and refresh myself with LSCN book which I haven even touch . haha. Should be ok la.. haha.  

2nd day of AL, first time in the morning I realised I made money from my shares. HeHe... :P a few hundreds  . Not that bad . at least enough to cover the wedding hong bao.

In the afternoon I was for movie and facial. Time to pamper my face after 2 round of night. :) I also bought some food for my family while on my way to fetch my mum and my sister home. At least today my day is fruitful :)

Finally finished my night with patient fighting, in the end I have to put up RMS. Sian to the max. Best is just before my AL start. Never mind, I will just take it easy. Funny thing is  I had like 3 RMS ever since I came back. one RMS, patient fall. 2nd RMS patient absconded. now the 3rd one, patient fighting. weird luck for me.

something good that happen on my first day of AL, that is I received a call from Andrea , saying I'm going for Quality for the strength of Asia at Bangkok. woohooo!!!! first time ever. I can't believe it lo. She was also surprised that I'm going. haha. Me too . Best part is my family also want to go Bangkok to shop. good right?? lol. this is a unplanned thing for me. looking through the hotel to see which hotel is cheaper because the hotel they suggest is swissotel  , so expensive lor. 

It been a while that I last blog. Quite a number of things that happen, got good and got bad. I shall slowly blog it down.

First of all, I'm been nominated by my sisters to go for the outward bound Singapore(OBS) leadership and service awards (LSA) 2013. Something happy to be glad on. Although SGH only going to have 5 nominates to participate, I hope I can be one of them. It is a good chance to expose myself to this type of event. Now, I'm waiting for the reply for SNA to confirm who will be going. It will be a 21 days in Pulau Ubin. I can sense it will be fun. hehe. Welcome to the fun for camping. lol

Second thing was yesterday I went to watch the SGH liver transplant musical. First time ever watch SGH performance this type of musical. It was just 1 hour but it did bring the message across, heart warming and funny. And I saw my ex colleagues from 57 dancing. I didn't know that they dance so well. I was amazed. All of them looked like a different person totally.

Third thing was today, I went to participate in the vertical challenge conducted by our very own physiotherapy department. As from the name itself, is not challenging who can jump the highest win. but is about climbing our very new building in SGH , the academia. It is a 13th level high building and one of the highest in sgh for now!!! haha. So I joined the fun although I'm off today. me and my colleagues form a team to participate the event. As we climb the stupid staircase, I was like what the hell, how come no ending one. idiot lor. my knee was painful but have to tahan through it. but in the end still managed to complete it. I didn't bother to check out my timing all I want to do is to sit down and rest my freaking painful knee and gastric upset. 

After the whole event, I went to meet up my god sister for lunch and tea time. We went to PS the zhong tian  restaurant to have our lunch, the food there not bad, pricing reasonable. display of the food also special.  Follow by, we went to wisma to  have our tea time at paris baguette. The desserts were too tempting to be eaten but in the end we still ate it. haha. we ordered  haha family and strawberry shortcake and the desserts were superb. I so long never eat the cake that is soft and tender. really worth my time and money. haha. I will go there to have my dessert again when I go there. hehe

Today I got good news from my shares. I manage to sell of my shares and make a profit of a few hundreds bucks. Not so bad after all, since it is an extra income for myself. Plus to recoup back what I lose that time. And best part is after I told my god sister, she very sun bian pian chi from me. haha. hai. what to do , I got a mouth greedy god sister. haha :P

As for last week, it is just a busy week at work. nothing much happen. just volunteer to do the roster for my side but in the end my sister ask me to do rehab side roster and other colleague to do renal c roster. I am ok with anything la. rehab roster is not very difficult for me. it just took me a few hours and I'm done so I pass back to her the next day. But my colleague doing the renal c roster still haven finish and still cracking her head . Nevermind, there will always be the next time to do it. roster to me is nothing. just play around with it and mixed and match. haha

Let me update some of the things that happen last few days. I did something that is out of my norm to a special person on a particular day which only I know and she knows. I'm glad that she is happy to received the surprise when she is at work because I know she is a bit moody that day due to some personal doubt on certain person. At least this pleasant surprise lighten up her day a bit.

And the day before we went out for a movie and dinner ' dating', and best part we unknowingly chatted till 1am plus at TCC orchard. I didn't know that we had chatted for so long already. we told each other a lots of things about life, relationship and many other things. I very very long never had this before. last time I had this is  like a few years back and I'm enjoying it.

Time for more updates, I just completed my first round of night in my current ward. So far so good. have to handle 15 patients  at one go. But for my 2nd and 3rd night, I'm floater for 4 rooms. so I just become a plug setter, blood sucker for all 3 nights. haha. I enjoy it but my patients will hate me for been a blood sucker. haha. :P

And I started to do the rosters for my renal C. so far so good. only one idiot who is more senior than me requesting to have all weekends off which is nonsense. she should know better than me because she had done deputised before. next time, please think before you pen down the request. be reasonable la. My 2nd round of night will be coming in 2 weeks time, so which me good luck.

Time to update about what happen last week. I had my first resuscitation after coming back in my ward. It was very sudden but I expected that to happen because the patient condition was like a time bomb. When it happened, the people around were mostly junior and never do resuscitation before. They are so lost till I had to run the whole show  even when my sister is around. Plus my on call HO is also damn lost, so panicky when she can't get the plug in for the patient, so in the end, to make herself useful, she jump up on to the patient to do the compression while I had to connect the leads onto the patient, than preparing adrenaline for them, help them find veins so that more fluid can be connected and lastly  do compression. Luckily, I still got shuyan who help me set up the suction set, sister Irene to prepare the ETT tube (but in the end failed to insert) and seri who help to administer the drug. However, patient still pass away. I find is better for him to go than to suffer further.

And yesterday night, I had a very very weird dream. I dreamt of me and my ex competing to send a game message to each other to decide whether we can get back together. If my message is faster than her, it will be a yes, we can get back together. If her message  is faster than mine, than it will be a no. So in the end, She won and I was sad than I wake up with a little of tear at my eyes. What a weird dream to have. Does it say something ?? Don't know. hmmm....

Today, it marks the end of my preceptoring course at bestway. This is one of the courses I enjoyed the most. Not only did I gain the knowledge, I met some new friends from singhealth polyclinic and eye centre. And the best part is, the lecturer is my foundation programme sister, NE Low. It just bring me back to the days where I'm doing my foundation programme with her. We shared in the class about something that may improved sgh as a whole in term of nursing professional, which I feel we are the same kind of person. We need changes to the top people so that we can advance as a whole.

For lunch, we went out to tajiong pagar AXA building to search for our food. We went to once a upon a rosti to have our lunch. apparently, it tasted good. but because of my sause, mustard, which is super sour. it spoil my rosti a bit but overall is worth my money and taste. So next time go training at bestway, we got more choices. no need to just go tajiong pagar mrt exchange or international plaza or mac or burger king.hehe

Today I went to update my bank book and I realised that my stock interest is in. it just a small investment of 6k plus, I got a 2 percent interest back. Not a bad return. Even the bank also cannot give me such a good interest. and I don't need to wait for 1 year to see the return, it just took me like 2 month hehe. :P

Today also went out for dinner with my rehab staffs at buffet town and kai shin brought her daughter along, so I went to play with her, carry her around to see see and look look. I like to play with them. At that moment, I really enjoyed it, been able to take care of kai shin baby girl like my own while waiting for William to come, I become her part time daddy because she keep saying ba ba ba... haha. Let me thought of the minions. haha.  But thinking about, when I got the chance to have my own baby, I'm wondering how. haha. I think too much. lol.

For the past few weeks, I'm been doing OT after my morning shift. These have broke my principle and records to do OT unnecessary. This is because of my preceptee who is still learning and leaving all the shits till the end. Even how I tell or how other people scold her, she still repeatedly doing the same thing wrongly again and again. First 2 time I will teach, after that I will say  or even scold if I need to. Telling her the most important thing NOT to do is to pass shit over to the next shift. However, she repeatedly keep doing it again and again.

Now the current generation, we can't use the old way to teach them ( Scolding or sacarsiam) The more you do that on them, the more they will be demoralised and they more they won't want to learn. This is what we call the strawberry generation, one touch will be smash. Not like us, how the senior touch or smash on us, we are like a rubber ball, still can bounce it back and fight on. All I can say is the generation is getting bad to worse.

When can I get back my on the dot go home and not pass shit over?? Feel so bad for my colleagues who is taking over from them. ....hai....

Past week events

Time for some updates on my past one week. Last week, I had my BCLS re- cert. I went through effortlessly, just some updates on the  changes but the rest is still the same. So, I'm the first to finish  all the modules. :) In 2 years time, I will see this book again. wahaha. :)

Than in the evening, I met up my rehab staffs for dinner at big mama Korean restaurant in Tiong Bahru. I'm surprised to see this type of restaurant in Tiong Bahru because to me, it is some lulo place in Singapore. hehe. Not only that , we also went to To pot Teat to chill and enjoy deserts. not bad and unique place to go to chill, not too noisy and the place is nice.

On Tuesday, I went out with my god sister for dinner. We went to skinny pizza for our dinner and as usual, we are sharing our good and bad at SICU and my own ward plus my previous ward. But I have faith that she can make it la, coz she is my god sister, she can tahan the stress over there. haha. But the funny part is when we are waiting for our koi drink, there is one couple , I think is tourist suddenly approaches me to tell me my shirt is unique so she want to take a pic of it to show her friends. I was like ermmmm but I still let her took the pic la. Just feel funny when she ask to take pic of my shirt so randomly. haha

Back to my ward that I belong for 2 weeks already, entertaining my nonsense patients as always. Just 2 weeks, my nonsense patient threaten to AOR and complain to SQ but all of us know that he just want to wayang his way over here. He want people to pity him, as if he is the victim. even my MO and me are so willingly to let him AOR. but lucky thing is that, we got a good renal HOD that supported his own doctor for making the right decision, as he knows that this type of patients don't deserve to be treated like the rest of the patients. Because this patient  scolded all the staffs before, physically hit one of the doctors before until the doctor had to call police, and hit other patient before and break our plate before. So as you can see, how to not want to let this type of patient leave. right? I don't know why the hospital still let this type of patient to be admitted. we should ban this patient from the hospital but the hospital sadly do not have this policy. hai.....

This is part and parcel of working in renal ward, coz most of the patients are the same. saying in a crude way, it is a slow death by extending their lives using dialysis while waiting for the chance to have kidney transplant.
 

Life in my Mother ward is good and I feel I'm happier in it. People may think that why you come back, but the fact is I had enough of outside world( other wards) and find here is my better choice. Over here, I upgraded from god son of renal to Son of renal. funny right? haha. I'm here because I can sense a belonging and I can see my future over here. Busy is normal but most importantly is that I'm happy to be back and to entertain some of my nonsense renal patients. And I also met my renal MO who was HO in DIM back than. She also cannot tahan the renal patients and regretted to come to renal and she just want to get over and done with it. next month she is going to become reg in Gastro. hope she will be better over there. :)

Today the PSI shoot all the way to 290!!! is freaking mad. now even my clothes also can smell of BBQ smell as if I just went for BBQ. To all my friends out there, please take care of your health, especially if you got asthma or URTI, Try as much to stay indoor as possible. Even if you want to go exercise, go to gym instead bah. no point go train your stamina for running than in the end SOB due to the haze.

Last day at work yesterday makes me happy coz I will be away from the politic area to a less politic area. The only thing I will miss will be my colleagues and my HD staffs who had fought the war together with me while I 'm there. We hold on for each other, stand for each other no matter how hard the situation are. That is the spirit that I saw in us.

Next week, Let's welcome me into a  hell that people refused to go coz of the patient loads and the types of patients and relative will be facing. But once you been through this, you will understand why I say the work load is ok  for me. coz the type of renal patient you see in only 1, which is consider the good one. but I'm going to face 17  patients of different types of renal patients with all sort of nonsense. So goodbye ward 57 and hello Ward 64 renal C. Your god son is back in action. wahhaaha.....

After 3 days of suffering of my body temperature that make me to have frequent cold shower, I decided to go see dr. But best part is I have to see Dr on my last round of night. hai.... maybe is fated. I still thought I can tahan through my night by popping panadol while doing night shift. And I have to tell the sister about it . Confirmed she sure say me purposely take mc on working day coz im been on leave and off days for 1.5 week.
 
And because I only decided to go see dr at 4.30pm coz I suddenly having high fever of 38.3degrees. Of the whole day, only until now den start to spike fever. shit right??.
Wanted to go to my sister polyclinic but it is too late, so in the end go SGH DEM to see DR.  When I reached SGH DEM, they took my temperature, OH MY GOSH!!!!. is 39.9 degree!!!!! And Im still alert and conscious. Even the DR say u look ok to me, just take panadol, CXR, some blood and stat N/Saline over 1 hr and will review me later.

Of coz while waiting for the panadol to take effect. I did putting water on my face to cool down the temperature. Even my breath is hot will I breath out. Thank god my temperature did came down to 37.9 degree at 8pm. However, I can feel it is coming back up so I keep drinking cold drink to cool it down but don't seem to work that good.  Hai....

When the Dr see my blood result, she said my platelet is normal so is not dengue fever, but she say my tonsils a bit enlarged and my total while is sky high. So the final diagnosis is Upper Respiratory Tract Infection.  so she given me some antibiotic, lozenges, cough syrup and panadol. Hope it will work.

Well done!!!!. in a day. i just lost 1K in stock. well done. But lucky thing is i only lost 1 k. if i hold on till north korean start the bombing, my heart will oso going to start bombing too.

Today, out of my surprise, i saw my ex smn in my ward, bringing her nephew to come to see the medical field before he decided to embark to be a doctor.
When i saw her, i got the unknowning joy inside me that i wanted to cry.
the joy that i wanted to hug her. When she introduced me to her nephew and to my ward sister as my boy, it just bring a smile on my face.
A smile that is deep from my heart. The moment that lighten up my day.
When she asked that qn, unknowingly i knotting my head  showing the eagerness that i would want to return to the place i long to be. Now , all i hope is that this wish is coming soon .

Recently, there are many things happened at work.
until our big big boss has to come down to find out what happen actually.
when the truth has spoken, promises from the big big boss broken,
it really makes me think even more that i wanted to leave this place asap.
it just slowly killing me  mentally.
the used to be happy and joyful person i once be, becoming other's eye back stabber and have to hide the truth feeling in me, is gone or should i say it slowly dying off.
politic, is the most quiet, but most harmful weapon to have at work that will kill people silently.
Hai.....

Resolution for 2013

Time really flies!!!! here we are, in 2013 and we survive!!!! no doom days, nothing. So, is time to reflect back on what i did in the past year. some of the resolution i made in 2012.

 

1) watch ( I got it!!!)
2) complete my advance diploma ( Completed!!!)
3) special shirt or T-shirt ( pink colour should be counted. never in my life wearing pink and i find it nice :) )
4) go for many good dates with my friends and my
loved one ( not many good dates but have a wonderful time with them when we are out)
5) to loss weight and maintain it at 71 to 72 kg ( this one failed big time!!! still the same 75 to 76kg:( )
6) ran 21km again with better timing ( Completed my 21km but timing not met)
7) find my mrs right ( still searching for my mrs right ('-') )
8) learn sexaphone ( never even buy. haha. i guess i should just master my guitar first :) )
9) be happy always ( not really happy but trying to be)
10) go travelling often. ( Be it short or long trip)  ( at least i went hong kong, taiwan, and a few time to JB with friends)

 

Out of 10 resolutions, i managed to complete 7. not a bad achievement for myself:)

 As for 2013, what should i want to achieve??

 

Resolution for 2013

1) transfer out to my old ward

2) Earn more money from shares ( at least $1000)

3) loss weight to 72 to 73kg

4) wallet

5) get back in the love game and find my mrs right

6) travel out of singapore more

7) be happy

8) move toward mangerial role

9 ) have many good dates with my friends and love one.

10) learn more songs for guitar

 

Maybe you can see, why i dont want to put run 21km as my resolution? is because my body is starting to fail me, so i have to get  my health first before running 21km again. that will be it for 2013. Hope i can achieve.